it’s okay to float.

 

I’ve been so wrapped up lately.

In something that I can’t see but I can feel it, I’m scared.

If I’m being honest I’m not really sure what it is that I’m scared of.

I feel like I’ve been thrown into the middle of the sea, but I forgot how to swim.

The water around me is thick and heavy..it’s taking over my senses and surroundings.

I can’t move but I don’t really want to either. My mind tells me to drop everything and run.

To leave it all.

Leaving…something I’m so good at.

That’s a contradicting statement because I’m the one who always gets left behind. Though I’ve always had an amazing talent for cutting people off without a hesitation, for some reason you’re not one of them. Anymore that is.

I feel like we’re dipping our toes in the water but run away from the waves each time they approach us.

 I’m waist deep in the ocean and I can’t help but wonder where do you stand?

Are you ankle deep? Are you drowning?

Maybe you haven’t even set a foot in the water.

Some become fearful of the depths of the ocean, I know I am. If I cant see the bottom nor can I touch it then I suddenly don’t feel welcome.

You never know what may come along and pull you away from it all, pull you deeper into the darkness.

Saltwater fills my lungs as I struggle to breathe and my eyes become clouded with the darkness that surrounds me.

Then it stops.

The darkness becomes light.

I can suddenly breathe again…

I’m not scared anymore, sometimes you just have to float along with the waves.

Take it all day by day and I think I’m okay with that.

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